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went to school again...

2008-05-29T11:45:21Z

Wednesday

went to school for art again...
haix quite sian.... keeping drawing drawing and drawing for 3 hours... =/
after that we went to BUGIS ! but it was raining went we walk out of school =(
then only i got umberlla so i have to fetch tricia elaine and jasmin one by one...lol
when i was fetching elaine then saw TPG>> jia hao running in the rain to sch..
..lol poor thing..never mind la haha=D

then we went to have lunch...at the S11 across our school! wahaha
after lunch the rain stop! then off we go to bugis, waste quite a lot of time in the middle sia..
but who cares?! haha

These are the art pieces that i have done til now...
my research and development is still in progress..or rather say everything is still in progress! haix...

on the way to bugis i stalk jasmin,

elaine! haha can't be able to take a photo of tricia because she is standing behind me..=.= lol!
then we went to search for jazreel's birthday present..
and jasmin and tricia's skinny jean! =D
in the end we bought jazreel bag there and bought elaine's birthday present in front of her..lol! haha
sorry if you insist not to buy, but i still bought it lol! haha
Then we went to bukit panjang plaza to buy tricia and jasmin's skinny jeans, as they said the price is cheaper there! lol
then bought subway home for dinner after that..

on the way to bpp from bugis...

today

went to school again....
should have put my art pieces picture below today but nvrm.. haha
then after art, went to west mall have lunch at SUBWAY! YES! SUBWAY AGAIN! lol!
then after that went to lot 1 with jasmin to continue searching for jazreel birthday present...
and finally we settle her present today! yes sa!
=D

and i am here blogging now! bye! =D

finally is ok...

2008-05-27T10:28:15Z

Many things happened these few days...
haix to say that jay chou is having some health problem...
orh...saddening... this is what i can't really expected to happen,,,
is like OMG! when elaine told me today...
And i go find the news to prove it more =.= as i don't really hope he have any health problem...
Orh...really love his song a lot..haix he is so talented lah.. why this kind of thing happen to him=(

Haix...nvrm hope his condition will be stable as long as possible.. =D
jia you bah!xD
Hope people around me stay healthy too!

I need to talk about ytd's thing... really sorry for my very sucking attiude..
debbie really sorry, let you throw in face of those uncle...=(
and also to elaine , boonyun and shermain...really very sorry...

one more thing air-con finally fixed1 yes sa!
i finally can sleep in my room with air-con once again...
Sorry dad and mummy for not helping you both to do anything much..
i very bad, keeping arguing with my dad, really sorry..=/

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waiting for u guys reply still...lol haha

a smile to let my day to carry on well =)

Let me get some life please...

2008-05-24T13:32:23Z

i need to have some peace... i realised living with my sis will cause me to die more earlier than i expected..
she always misunderstand..
orh...it sucks...just stop it please..
i don't have so much brain cell to solve every single problem...
i have enough problems for me... ENOUGH! that's it!

if can...let me give you some love...
if can ...i want to be your friend.....
if can... i hope everything is perfect in this world...
if can... i hope the world is peace forever
if can... i hope i can do what i want...
if can... let's stop the nonsense
if can... i don't want to live with you
if can...i want to be alone
if can... i hope i am not in this world...

jiu rang wo ai ni, mei you le zi ji....

MY LIFE NOW...IS ALL ABOUT MUG MUG MUG AND MUG....

SA1 result

2008-05-23T07:23:05Z

MY SA1 result

ENGLISH
55.9/100
grade: 5

CHINESE
72.8/100
grade: 2

MATHS
68.4/100
grade: 3

COMBINED SCIENCE
47.7/100
grade: U

COMBINED HUMANITIES
40.2/100
grade: U

PRINCIPLES OF ACCOUNT
70.8/100
grade: 2

ART
69.1/100
grade: 3

TOTAL: 424.9/700
PERCENTAGE: 60.7%
EMB3 Aggregate: 15
L1B2 Aggregate: 9

that's my result from the report card...=/
can be better...
continue MUGGING.. N LEVEL IS COMING IN 3 month! =(

sorry i am just angry at myself...

2008-05-23T07:03:46Z

The more you feel sad angry or want to avoid...
The more remorseful i feel....
being guilty is not what you can control or tell me off
just let me be like this, i will feel much more better ...
i am not pissed with you, but just myself..=/
sorry, you know who i am referring to...is obvious...

continue and continue and continue again....

2008-05-20T07:16:21Z

today...went to school...
quite slack today in class..

nothing to do...=(

i really hope miracles happens..i really hope they join us for at least one outing...
Not because of elaine but just to friends with you guys...although i don't know is u guys are willing to or not..
really really hope my handphone suddenly vibrate miracles out...
i don't ask for much, just one thing..
be friends with them, this is what i wish and hope..=)
but too bad, don't really think any one of them will saw this...referring to the( Sec 4s basketball boys)
if you guys saw this, be kind and consider of the outing, sms me, hope u guys didn't throw away the number...=/
if thrown, can ask from me anytime, i am very willing to contact you guys AS A FRIEND..
Sincerely hope so...

sorry to touch your bag jia hao, hope that you don't mind... i am just helping my friend...=)
As I don't want to backstabb anyone, so i just type out the name and person that i want to give the information to,
although it is somehow straight forward, or rather say, very straight forward..

that day we waited and just to give u guys the letter...
sorry for troubling u guys ,and please hope you guys consider first before u guys make any confirm answer..
want to be a friend of u guys really make my life tough, it is really a challenging group of people, i won't give up till the day u guys pass out
but i won't do anything that will make u guys life difficult..
Guess that's all i have to say...
A hello in school from u guys will really brighten up our day...
Having u guys as schoolmates make life in school more and more interesting, that's why i want to be friends with u guys.
as simple as that..

this is What i deserve

2008-05-17T11:46:33Z

i deserve all these..serve u you right NGO YIYING

I feel more worst than any of you does....i just cant get high ,i am just getting low low low........=(

Haix...it happens again..=(

2008-05-16T13:36:06Z

SORRY ELAINE!!!

the biggest sorry to ELAINE!!!!!

i don't what to say...but just...sorry sorry sorry and sorry...

i just want to push all the blames to myself, that's why i wrote the letter without writing u guys names, other than elaine i mean.... AS I DID STARTED IN SUGGESTING THIS PLAN IN THE FIRST PLACE.... after today, i don't expect elaine to trust me again... I AM A FUCKER for your information.
Only FUCKER like me do this kind of thing to herBEST FRIEND..
OH! i shoulden't say best friend... i am not suitable to be YOUR BEST FRIEND anyway..... I regreted alot...alot alot alot...
No matter what i said now are all too LATE!

I must sincerely say SORRY to the BASKET BALL BOYS! Sorry for troubling u guys..
Hope u guys won't mind...
especially YOU! sorry... chinese language...

feeling low...

2008-05-14T10:53:18Z

i don't know what to say, but my english result was a disappointment to me..
feeling really low now..
my other subject also don't turn up well....i am really regret, didn't put in the best effort..
slacking like nobody business.. haix sianx... why can't i have at least all pass for once

i really need someone that i can talk with..just let me emo now......

trying to stay as happy as possible (being myself)

Is time to stop...

2008-05-10T11:19:25Z

Is time to stop everything....
Stop arguing stop backstabbing one another....
we shall stop... it's tired for everyone to survive as friends in this way..
If this continue we don't have the rights to gain other's respect...
I am glad that we said everything out today...
But i can't guarantee we can be as good as before..
sometimes i feel that the friendship between wasn't strong at all..

we get angry easily just because of small things.. that's ridiculous man
Friendship shouldn't be in this way, i really hope that we really treat each other with true heart
If not, no point being bestie...
having bad comment about friend wearing is my fault..
helping others wrongly is my fault.
sorry elaine is my fault or our fault..
we shoulden't talk bad behind..
Backstabbing is what i hate the most..

this makes me really hate myself alot sometimes..
but i pay back to u guys what i have done wrong, i treat u guys as good as possible...
i won't mind , just pls cancel HPYS this name..
i disagree to have this...

if we really want to live together, we will have the fate to
if we really are best friends, we will have the fate to
we can't predict the future.
sometimes i feels that we are too naive..
a name can't represent anything

sorry if iam too harsh in my words..
at least i didn't fuck out..
and i never walk away...(that's childish) sorry girls
i don't deserve so much blessing...

SLACK

2008-05-04T13:47:47Z

Haix... don't know what to post.......

=(

till now, not a single paper makes me feel very confident ,i will still hesitate whether there is any mistake in my exams paper..
Especially english... no confident at least.. is so difficult can! drink how much BRIAN JUICE (referring to plain water)also no use la..
......

sign off*

no passion to study...

What a "wonderful day" man...

2008-04-17T10:18:50Z

Today...
I need to said something first...
Sorry elaine... seriously sometimes i don't really like the way u see things,
is my fault that i insist you to be the same as me..
Maybe you guys feel that i am strong, but really, sometimes i am like this because i want to hide
those "weak side" of me behind of you all, i don't like people to know that i am weak...
That's why i pissed off when people cannot even take it, when they face small problem,
because i will be thinking that ' if i can do it why you guys can't ' right? that's how i feel everytime...
elaine next time i won 't said anything, not because i don't care already, i will only comment when neccessary

Ran 2.4 today... i must emphasis that, today is the first actual want that i am running... i didn't fail ok!
run until so jia let, the timing is only 16 mintues plus... sian ah -.-
but at least i manage to pass!
after that is recess, and we said sorry to SOMEONE, yes is you!
don't get stunned, his's expression is damn freaking gong...
never mind, i feel happy that i said sorry ,is ok that he don't understand... i understand can liao haha
Although Du ge didn't said the full reason of why we said sorry ,to him, but never mind lah,he won't know unless he talk to us..
=D

then no remedial for me debbie boonyun today..
when home together, we took taxi home as debbie stomach ache -.- poor thing
the taxi fee is $9.60, so easy for us to divdie the money, lol
reach home around 3 plus going to 4.
had cereal with milk -.- if mummy knows this she confirm will nag at me man...
orh hope my cough will recover asap...
tired of coughing every single day.

HPYs , can this name last i don't know... i will help to last no matter what peeps, don't worry..
and i won't forget, i will only forgive , if u forget how will you remember the person mistake and help
he or she to change right? this is how i feel...i hardly forget things that is not supposed to be remembered...
i am always like this..haix...
that's why i had a little miss trouble T-shirt..-.-
LOL! ok i shall end here..

What can i do for the Odyssey?
what can i do to let everyone happy and satisfied?

i am happy to have u guys with me.

MUMMY and PAPA.. why i can't be as blessed as others?
although both of u didn't spoil me, but sometimes don't mind giving me what i need and want,
i ask for pants for very long, no one seems to care...mummy are u listening to me?
it's ok that u don't buy, papa save money at the right time, and don't anyhow scold me and jie can?
sound so irritating whenever u said things that are not logic at all...i know both of u won't see this...
but i just want to speak out my feelings...

I pass out liao! i just can't believe it man! 0.0

2008-04-14T10:51:24Z

Saturday 120408

SERENADE! IT'S SERENADE! The day that SEC 4s pass out!
orh... So sad.... the last performance! i did my best that day. To me, i don't really think that my sound is good
enough..but never mind already over liao! haha
i will miss my junior... haix..

And also thanks HPYs FOR THE ROSES! SO NICE! THANKS! LOVE U GUYS!
i appreciate everything you guys gave! =D

This 3 years plus, i really been through a lot of things! there are happy , sad, tiring and lovely memorise...
i flash back a lot of things... this BAND LET ME LEARNT A LOT OF THINGS...
i admit that i really hate going for practice sometimes... but truly i love this band the most..
my senior lecture me when my playing is not good, i still can remember things like this...
Also i grow up , i learnt how to manage relationship between boys and girls.. it is really not that easy..
i learnt not to be stubborn, learnt to accept others opinions... and have my own thoughs.. and do things at the right time.

SEE! this band makes me become more mature! =)

SWISSWINDS ROCKS FOREVER IN MY HEART! i will not be coming back in 2009 SYF! i know my juniors can do it without senior's help..

Sunday 130408

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BOHUI AND SIS! haha! NOTHING TO POST TODAY! i am very busy!!

CHIONG MY HOMEWORK!

Monday 140408

YES today is WANG ZI's BIRTHDAY! LOL!

OK! from today onwards i must study and study and study!
i am not going to online that often...

Got a lot of things to study and draw on! Don't even have the time to slack around!
i want to go to Ngee Ann Poly then i must work hard! JIA YOUS! i shall not give up!
i must make use of the june holidays to catch up in my homework! haha!

I LOVE STUDYING! I WANT TO ARCHIEVE BETTER RESULT! =D

finally i dig out time -.-

2008-04-10T13:16:48Z

0.0 so many things happen nowadays...

more and more people entered my life -.-

should i say that it is a good thing?
never mind...

Wednesday

HPYs go out together after school for lunch! plus the bjw!
we saw the BB boys on the bustop near the school ! ok la, i really must said that i didn't sian diao ok?!
i never even hate them la! just feels that they hate me....
Just hope they will see this! ok don't get pissed off over myself...-.-
haha LOL!

Actually planing to said sorry to them but never, maybe they don't even cares? =/

Then we went to the west mall food court and eat... don't really feel good, but i still can finish my yong tau fu soup haha.(don't waste food mah lol) ~~~finally, i went to see doctor at night...the doctor was like OMG! so damn freaking GAY! 0.0 nearly got stunned inside the room ..
but at least i still manage to get out of there.

Thursday

Ok today! i didn't run 2.4 -.- ,got mc , as my cough is causing me some breathing problems if i run...
Pray hard that i will get well before serenade!
Even if i am not, i will force myself to play until the best that i can!
It is my LAST PERFORMANCE! U KNOW!!

HAHA! then go out with HPYS! again! we go macdonalds! i know i can't eat, better i really feel like eating something i want..
only eat fries and ice cream..and it taste bitter to me...-.- puke* especially the garlic chili..

ok i shall rest now...

GIVE ME SOME MORE OXYGEN! i FEEL TIRED! -.-

I not blaming anyone, i am just tired of this life...

2008-03-29T13:33:29Z

Today went for family day at sentosa, shocking rite?
doesn't feel that good today, as the weather is really very hot ! my goodness sake 0.0''
shoulden't went black...
the only thing to be happy is, my mummy won a 4 GB thumbdrive during lucky draw! really feel happy for her...
i nearly bought a havanas today, i change my mind just because of some reason, although my mummy wanted to buy for me

then didin't bought any thing and just go home...haha always like that when i went out with my parents most of the time.
ya thats all for today...

today i realised something..
i am not the only one that is like this, elaine and debbie is also the same
we likes to talks about people's things, or rather say everyone do..
sorry for being angry with u both..
i just so pissed nowdays because of :
>trying to figure out what's going on?
>trying do my homework, as i dun understand
>trying to find time to rest
>trying to understand what's my HPYS is thinking
>trying to know why that person dun add me in msn(ok that's childish)
>trying to control my gl attitude

i am just so F**K
i am not a person, not even suit to be a friend of u guys.
u sucks me i don't mind, cause i dun feel inside the grp.
that's all i have to say, u all dun need to pull me in, although i dun know what will be going on next.
but what i know about you guys, i can read ur mind through ur expression and the way u guys are talking...

I am feel damn hot now...

I feel....

2008-03-28T12:58:08Z

I am feeling more and more left out and uneasy sometimes....

i am not trying to said that i hate anyone , is my own problem, maybe is i too sensitive?

I need time to cool down and think, my flu is not yet recovered.. but is ok lol.

i am very strong u know! lol

I am Bored..

2008-03-27T12:25:24Z

Life is so meaningless without someone with me

LOVE MY FRIENDS LOTS!

I NEED SOME LOVE FOR MYSELF

Searching for the right person, seems to be so hard..=(

sad to say...

2008-03-26T09:12:43Z

Today! i PON my english remedial! haix... because i am
feeling damn freaking tired.. coughing like nobody's business la!
BUT! i still go and have LUNCH with my laopo men!( you guys must be thinking that i am flirting everywhere again)
haha! Nvrm..had cold cut today at subway... cause i am feeling hot! -.-

then we talk talk talk........ we saw huishi and kai yan, we were talking with them about the 'things got stolen' thingy..
ya then after that we go G2000, elaine wanted to buy something called the 'boyfriend shirt' there...lol
ok so went home after that..
And now i am posting an entry in my live journal.

ya, and is talking crap u know..

today's is not a good day, but better than ytd...
anyway... PLS! SUPPORT SWISS SERENADE! TICKET AT$12 EACH!!! U CAN ALSO BUY IT FROM OTHER SWISSWINDS MEMBER! THANKS!
i have to do my homework soon! BYE!

i am blogging again!

2008-03-24T13:46:45Z

i am blogging again! the last time i blogged is one year+ ago... trying to figure out my password for the blogger, i mean my pervious blogspot.
But now i changed it to livejournal! lol! Although not really used to it la..
Anyway, today, wasn't a good day for me man...
performance during assembly wasn't that successful...quite sad...
Nvrm i shall don't think too much bah...haha

Hope that tomorrow will be better, and really hope that tomorrow's assembly performance will be better than today's! haha

a person must always tried their best first before giving up! this will make a difference in your life!

19 days to SWISS SERENADE! JIA YOU!
swiss winds can to do it! and we can do better!